An open letter to 2020

Dear 2020

You took so much from me. You took away the most important person from me, you took away my dreams, my aspirations and myself. I just felt lost every time. You made me feel so lonely that I was bound to stay in a room for days.

I’m not grateful to you for almost everything. I feel that you’re a cursed year. What good did you bring to the world? Nothing. Nothing was right. Not a single person lived without any problem but yet we survived you, we went through you.

I’ve so many complains from you. Why did you take away my love from me? Why did you leave me with this anxiety which isn’t ready to leave me now? Why did you take away my dreams? You just made me waste a year of my life. I could’ve done so much but I wasn’t able to.

I’m happy that you’re getting over soon and I’m getting out of you but this time with no expectations, hopes and resolutions. I’m just going with the flow now to make myself and my life better without expecting anything from anyone. It’s hard but I’ll get through it all just the way I got through you.

Published by Shivani Gupta

Feeling. Writing. Healing.🌸❤

22 thoughts on “An open letter to 2020

  1. I agree with henhouselady that your post is so profound. I empathize with you (I also lost two dearly loved ones in the same year six weeks apart in 2015 – still feels like it was this year!) and sympathize with you on your loss. Writing an open letter is therapeutic – I hope it helps on your way to healing. 🙏🏾 for grace and hope that the coming year is better and “gives you beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; …”
    ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭61:3b‬ ‭KJV‬‬ ✌🏾

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  2. Shivani, I am sorry you lost someone you loved. it has been a terrible year. I think “going with the flow” makes a lot of sense. It is hard to make resolutions in such a fluid situation. I haven’t come up with resolutions yet. May 2021 bring healing and recovery to you and to all of us. ❤

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  3. A touching letter lovely and every year is a test, a test of strength, will and character. We’ll lose love, mental strength and other things that’ll try to break us but as long as we make it through, we survived and didn’t fail. With every loss comes a new gain, there’s always a rainbow after the storm so we always enter the new year with hope as if the odds are always in our favor. Don’t let the old year shape how your new year will be, you control it. Make it your year, have a Happy one. May it be joyous.🌹🌹

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  4. Thank you for sharing!!… we do not really lose anything for that which we fear is lost is actually a memory forever located in our heart, to visit anytime we wish… change is the law of life and “There are things that we don’t want to happen but have to accept, things we don’t want to know but have to learn, people we can’t live without but have to let go.” ( Nancy Stephan)

    Hopefully you will have a very Happy New Year, with each day filled with peace, love and happiness as the heart will go on!!… 🙂

    Until we meet again..
    May love and laughter light your days,
    and warm your heart and home.
    May good and faithful friends be yours,
    wherever you may roam.
    May peace and plenty bless your world
    with joy that long endures.
    May all life’s passing seasons
    bring the best to you and yours!
    (Irish Saying)

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